I don’t even know if there is that many of you who still follow this blog because I haven’t written in so long. I have been doing well just haven’t been into blogging for a long time. I see I have 30 comments to go through! LOL
But all is well and the “new” thing in my life is I’m trying to start an online business selling handbags and accessories. I have all the necessary tax certifications so that I can buy from wholesale distributors. It’s alot of work but I really love it.
I’m still waitressing, live in the same house but may be moving by end of year. Just can’t afford this big house any more.
So I hope the Lord is blessing you and keeping you and remember He has a plan for our life, and His timing is not our timing. I’m being patient with the website thing, as I’ve spent countless hours working on it and no sales yet. It’s been a couple months now but I really think God is going to bless me with prosperity and good fortune in the new future.
So anyway, I’d like to introduce you to my website and you can use a coupon code at checkout for 5% off.
Coupon code is WORDPRESS and receive a 5% discount on their first order!
God Bless you all my friends!
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Posted December 21, 2013on:
I haven’t even logged into WordPress is a long time. I feel like I’m distancing from this whole thing. From God. My Bible studies. My prayer. I hate life. I hate the struggle everyday. I’m so sick of working so hard and never seeing the benefits. I see non-Christians daily seeing $200 tips and $150 tips (I’m a waitress). They are not as nice as I am and they hate people. I’m tired of seeing all these unbelievers prospering.
I sound sooo ungrateful. No wonder God doesn’t bless me like that. He see that I’m not appreciative of what He’s given me so far. Yes, I’ve come a looooong way when it comes to my previous drug addiction. But now I’m in REAL life, and it sucks.
I’ve never been a big fan of life. I have felt this since I was a child. This heaviness of life has never lifted from me. Yes, it has a few small instances. Momentary happiness. Momentary joy. Momentary periods of good attitude and positive perspective.
I told someone today, I hope I don’t live more than 10 years from now. I really feel that. I’m not doing drugs. This is me sober for 14 months and still feel the same way I did when I was using.
My purpose is to stay alive for my son and family. Otherwise, I’m a waste.
This post is a personal situation I’m going through and would appreciate any input from my brothers, sisters in Christ and fellow friends in recovery.
There is a man at work who wants to pursue a friendship. He is a manager and has been awesome with helping me have a “voice” at work during times when I was having some issues with getting more shifts, more tables, etc. Essentially, making more money. Because of his input to the higher ups, on my account, I have made awesome money this week. I am grateful. Very grateful.
Now mind you, I am not naïve. I know that this “friendship” he wants to pursue will develop into stronger feelings. Feelings that I am not ready for. He knows I am a Christian. He is not a believer. He does not make fun of my beliefs (to my face anyway), but I have heard him scoff at the very mention of Jesus Christ and God. He made a comment yesterday about the church crowd coming in for lunch. He mentioned that “these people go to church and act all ‘good’ yet it’s obvious one of them is a homosexual”. I looked at him and said, “God loves everybody.” Someone gave him a little card about salvation, and he laughed and said “can you believe they gave this to me?” And threw it away. He knows how I feel about God and Jesus, and I was offended. It hurt my feelings. But I didn’t let him see that.
I was contemplating getting a second job, and was very torn about this decision. Reason being, I don’t want to shoot myself in the foot and have my current job be upset and take me off the schedule all together. I do appreciate this man’s input and advice. So I went to him for advice. He knows the restaurant owners better than I do and he told me they wouldn’t like it, especially with the busy season coming. There is always another person wanting my job. So I decided to not go for the interview at this other restaurant. I was up in the air about what to do. I prayed boldly about it.
My first thoughts are to seek God with my decision making and what choices to make. But I wasn’t positive of what to do and thought maybe God was opening a door for me to make more money. But I had never got a clear cut answer from God if this was His will or not. I had to make a decision within 3 days. So I sought other advice. And I believe I made the right decision now by cancelling the interview.
Now back to the whole “friendship” thing. He kept pressing me into talking about how we feel about each other. He says I’m running away from myself. This was my response to that comment, “I am not running away from myself. I am very confident in who I am, but at this point of my life, I am focusing on myself. I don’t have the emotional or mental room for others right now.” This is the truth. I found myself thinking too much about this man, when I should be filling my thoughts with Jesus. I was very uncomfortable allowing an unbeliever from the opposite sex filling my thoughts. I could tell it was wrong. The Holy Spirit was grieving about this and I felt it.
So today I put an end to it. I told him we can stay work friends and that’s it. He was very polite about it and backed off (at least for now).
- When do we seek human advice from man when we aren’t hearing from God, especially if we need an answer within a deadline?
- We have to work in a world of unbelievers, how dangerous is it for us to follow their advice about our careers?
- God works through people, do you believe God also works through unbelievers to bless us? Why do you believe this?
- How close are we to get to an unbeliever? Should we develop close friendships with them?
- Should we have an attitude of “us” and “them” ?
In the passage of Matthew 1:18-25, we read of Jesus’ birth. I would like to stress that these verses not only speak of Mary being a virgin and with-child, but more powerfully it speaks of Mary being with-child by the works of the Holy Spirit. Going back to the context and the time in which Jesus was born, the Jewish culture thought of the Holy Spirit of having very definite functions.
According to the Jewish idea, the Holy Spirit was the person who brought God’s truth to man. It is the Holy Spirit who taught men of God what to do. The Holy Spirit taught the prophets what to say. It was the Holy Spirit, throughout the generations and ages, that brought God’s truth to man. So then, Jesus is the one person who brings God’s truth to men.
To put it another way, Jesus is the one person who can tell us what God is like, and what God wants us to be. It is in Jesus alone that we can see what God is and what man ought to be. Before Jesus came into this world, the Jews only had vague ideas and quite often wrong ideas about God. But Jesus could say, “He who has seen me has seen the Father.” (John 14:9).
In Jesus, we see the love of God, the compassion, the mercy, the seeking heart and the purity of God. This cannot be seen by anything else in the world. Before Jesus came into this world, man did not know what goodness really was. In Jesus alone we see true goodness, true manhood, true obedience to the will of God. Jesus came to tell us the truth about God and the truth about ourselves as well.
The Jews also believed that the Holy Spirit enabled men to recognize the truth once they saw it. So it is in Jesus that men’s eyes are opened to the truth. As humans we are usually blinded by our own ignorance. Our minds are darkened by our sins and we go astray because of our own prejudices. Jesus is the one who opens our eyes when we are ready to see the truth. Jesus is so glorious in this fact because He knows when we are ready to hear something and when we are not ready to accept something as the truth. He knows the perfect time to open our eyes. Life can be quite different when Jesus teaches us how to look at things.
I recently started reading a book by Philip Yancey, “The Jesus I Never Knew”. I’ve been on a search of a book that will catch my attention in the first few pages and I am happy to say I have found it. I’ve been wanting to learn more about Jesus and have had an inner tug at the back of my thoughts recently to go back to the beginning. Life can be so hard at times and so confusing. I find myself slipping away from the very thing that has always kept me grounded and moving forward. That “thing” is my relationship with Jesus and all he has done for me. Simply reading and studying Jesus again undoubtedly brings me closer to Him but it also gives me a sense of peace and purpose in this life.
The birth of Jesus was so important that it split history into two parts. B.C. and A. D. When studying history we usually always see these dates Before Christ or After Death. But Jesus isn’t just someone who changed history but he is the one who holds the secret of eternity.
“I tell you, whoever acknowledges me before men, the Son of Man will also acknowledge him before the angels of God,” Jesus said in Luke 12:8 (nlt)
According to Jesus, what I think about him and how I respond will determine my destiny for all eternity. Many of us believe that Jesus was brave, sinless and emotionally stable. We regard him as easy to understand, physically strong and attractive, practical, warm and accepting. In spite of how we see perceive him, many of us who look for Jesus cannot see past our own noses.
Jesus himself, when challenged, didn’t offer airtight proofs of his identity. It’s as if he welcomed the risk of dissection by saying, “Examine me. Test me. You decide”. Jesus would drop clues here and there about who he was but he also said, after appealing to the evidence, “Blessed is he who takes no offense at me.”
The actions and behaviors of other people affected Jesus deeply: stubbornness frustrated him, self-righteousness infuriated him, simple faith thrilled him. Jesus seemed more emotional and spontaneous than the average person, not less. More passionate, not less.
Two words that could never be applied to the Jesus of the Gospels is: boring and predictable.
Much of what I’ve written above may be directly from the book because honestly I just couldn’t figure out a way to paraphrase it to make it any better than what was already written. So I give Philip Yancey the credit where credit it due. It is my hope that as I read more of this wonderful book I will have more posts about “Learning Jesus”. Thanks for reading everyone and God bless you all!
“I want you to learn a new habit. Try saying, ‘I trust you, Jesus’, in response to whatever happens to you. If there is time, think about who I am in all My power and glory; ponder also the depth and breadth of My love for you.
This simple practice will help you see Me in every situation, acknowledging My sovereign control over the universe. When you view events from this perspective — through the Light of My universal presence — fear loses its grip on you. Adverse circumstances become growth opportunities when you affirm your trust in Me no matter what. You receive blessings gratefully, realizing they flow directly from My hand of grace. Your continual assertion of trusting Me will strengthen our relationship and keep you close to Me.”
excerpt from “Jesus Calling”, by Sarah Young
I’ve been wanting to write a post about this for quite some time. First, I will tell you I watch way too much tv. I love true crime & court shows. For instance, I watch Court TV, In Session, Nancy Grace, Dr. Drew, Forensic Files, Wives with Knives, Snapped, Deadly Wives, Motives & Murders, Sins & Secrets, Deadly Affairs, Happily Never After, 48 Hours Mystery, Dateline I.D., and City Confidential. I don’t just watch them, I DVR them while I’m and at work and when sleeping. DVR is the coolest invention ever. Seriously.
It’s safe to say I watch a lot of crap on TV. But my favorites are the ones where the wives get fed up and “off” their spouse. The abusive, nasty husband who cheats and beats up his wife on a regular basis……then they get whacked. Shoulda been nicer to her,,,, jerk.
If you’re sitting there with your mouth open and a look of bewilderment on your face, don’t worry. I’m not crazy, just well……damaged could be a good word for it I guess. You see a lot of the people depicted in these shows have something in common with me and the course of my life.
I have walked and lived amongst people who behave like this. I have been the victim as depicted in these shows (minus getting murdered of course). But I have also associated with the demons who reek havoc and mayhem on all the people around them. And I do believe these people have demons in them.
What sparked the interest in writing this post is a current trial I’ve been watching on ‘In Session”. The man is being convicted of murdering his 14 year old stepson. He did it and admitted it. I won’t go into the details of the trial but what sparked me today to sit and write was when this man was on the witness stand. I clearly believe he has a demon (or many demons) inside him. There is no conscience. He tortures puppies. He killed his stepson to get back at his ex-wife. I have not seen the whole trial yet and don’t know all the facts but what I saw today was the dude sitting on the stand saying “she killed my son so I killed hers.” Revenge. Sicko. Demon.
Are humans REALLY capable of that? Or is it a DEMON inside doing it? I want to ask my Christian friends out there this question. God made us in the likeness of His image. His purpose was not for us to kill and destroy each other. Satan came in and tempted Eve and it wound up destroying God’s divine plan because of a choice that Eve made. But before Satan came into the picture, was it in our nature to kill? What is it in our nature to “to eat or be eaten?”.
Let me ask this…..Did God know that Eve would give into Satan’s lies and eat the apple? If He did, why did He create us knowing we would fail?
I know I went a little off topic here but when I was a teenager (grew up in Baptist church) I would ask this question that no one could answer for me……if God is “All Knowing” then He knew there would be so much suffering and pain….why did He create earth and humans knowing that?
I honestly believe that a few people I work with have demons in them. I can even see it in the way their face distorts. And their eyes. Those black voidless eyes. It’s freaky. I steer clear of them and and usually say a quick mental prayer for strength.
This post is kinda all over the place so sorry guys. Letting thoughts run wild a little today.