We Reap What We Sow
Posted March 11, 2012
on:For we must all stand before Christ to be judged. We will each receive whatever we deserve for the good or evil we have done in our bodies. (2 Corinthians 5:10)
I am having to deal with a consequence from my past actions. God’s Word tells us that if we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. I am forgiven, I am cleansed for my past wrong. God loves me and He is faithful. Where would I be without His amazing love? Where would I be without His amazing grace and mercy? To answer that would be to say that I would not be sitting and writing this post for my blog. I would not be where I am sitting at this very minute. God is my everything and without Him I am nothing. I know that now.
I like to refer to this time in my life as the “second half of my life”. The first half of my life had many joys and many sorrows. The second half of my life is just now beginning. I am literally starting over in life. That can be exciting at times, but I’m a worry wart and I have a lot of fear. These are the current things in my life that God is healing me from. It takes time. So long as I am obedient to His Word, the worry and fear will disappear. God’s Word says it happens, so I believe it.
I have wanted to go into nursing for a long time. I love helping people. I would rather go without if it meant it could help someone in need. I want to bring value to a persons life. I want them to know they are loved and they matter. This is an attitude totally opposite of how I once lived my life. Living the life of an addict consists of what I want, when I want and how I want it. By the grace of God, I’m not living my life like that anymore. But I have a problem.
I am not able to go into this field because of a particular charge on my record. It’s a charge that cannot be expunged and will follow me my whole life. I had a job offer the other day that I had to turn down because I know the background check will come back with a violation. It doesn’t matter that I turned my life around, according to the state of Florida, I cannot work in any type of caregiving field. I was devastated.
So here I am again. Going through a test. I am so tired of tests!! But it’s of my own doing. I am reaping what I sowed. It’s a hard lesson. Peter writes a wonderful passage in 2 Peter 1:5-8:
“So make every effort to apply the benefits of these promises to your life. Then your faith will produce a life of moral excellence. A life of moral excellence leads to knowing God better. Knowing God leads to self-control. Self-control leads to patient endurance and patient endurance leads to godliness. Godliness leads to love for other Christians, and finally you will become productive and useful in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.”
I want to be productive and useful in some way. I’m not able to do it in the manner I wanted but I have to put my faith and trust in Him that He will make all things come together for good. It’s what God wants now, not what I want. I just hope I can pass the test this time.
20 Responses to "We Reap What We Sow"

I believe that God will accomplish His purposes in and through you. His wisdom is multi-faceted, and He has lots of ways to accomplish what He wants and is never hindered by our past.
God is indeed using all of this for good (Romans 8:28). One day as I read that verse, I also read verse 29 which I understood to mean that it’s our destiny to be conformed to the image of Christ. I don’t know all the good God accomplishes in our struggles (and even failures), but one of the good things is to change us more into the image of Christ. God is using you through your blog, and I’m sure He has greater things in store as you faithfully take one step at a time with Him. May you sense His presence close today.
Tricia


The State of Florida is not the final word, Jesus is. Miricles happen, laws change, mountains move. I pray that the Truth of Christ intervene in your situation. It is not over.


Dear Michele,
There are so many ways to care without having to get near addicting agents. Those are the ways you need to find. As I read a blog like http://www.addingjoyandlaughter.blogspot.com, I know there is a need for caring people everywhere. You just need to keep putting one foot in front of the other — living and moving forward. You will find your way. As the woman above so aptly said, “Prepare to be amazed!”
Hugs,
Dawn

March 19, 2012 at 12:47 pm
Proverbs 3:5&6 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths”. Putting all of my trust in God and giving Him total control of my life was one of the hardest things I have ever done. But it was also the smartest choice I have ever made, and it has been so worth it! God’s way is always the best way, even though at times we may not see it or understand it. Let Him lift up your heart and spirit, keep your focus on Him and your faith in Him. He will guide you to where you are needed, for His honor and glory. Thank you for sharing and may God bless you richly and keep you in His loving arms forever!
March 20, 2012 at 3:26 pm
Thank you for the kind words, they are much appreciated. Many blessings to you! 🙂