An Update On My Life….
Posted on: May 24, 2012
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I’ve had two blogging friends contact me today to check in with me. I know I have neglected my site and I think of all of you often!! Thank you my friends. Do you guys realize how much you impact me when you “check in” with me? I need that soooo much.
I am so honored the Lord has brought all of you into my life. It doesn’t matter that I haven’t physically met any of you.
The blessings and personal fulfillment I receive from all of you is a MAJOR part of my life. God knows me better than I know myself. I’ve screwed up so many friendships in my life. I’ve also been rejected and hurt so many times even when I thought I was being a good friend. God knows I get lonely and I won’t venture out to “make friends”. I am so grateful the Lord has led me to start blogging.
I’ve been working A LOT. I recently got a promotion, but I actually just got another promotion (two days ago) to asst manager! LOL God is amazingly blessing me. My head is in a bit of a whirlwind and I am trying so hard not to feel overwhelmed. Satan has been working overtime trying to kill my confidence and keep my mind off of Christ. But I keep fighting and staying grounded. At least I hope so. I hear Satan telling me, “Everything is going to blow up in your face just like it always does.”
I feel like I’ve lost my peace lately though. Even though all these good things are happening, I wake up irritable and emotional. It’s not enough that Satan attacks my thoughts during the day…
I think he’s at his strongest in my dreams. I have no defense in that situation.
I can read the Bible before bed and keep Christian music playing while I sleep and yet I will literally fight a demon in my dream that night. It’s so scary. I can tell you specifics because I remember my dreams, but I honestly don’t want to keep thinking about it. I will purposely stay awake because I’m scared to go back to sleep. I’d rather deal with the fatigue of no-sleep the next day then have to deal with the stress of bad dreams. I pray all the time for God to put a legion of angels in my dreams to protect me. But it doesn’t always work.
Anyway, not sure why I went there. LOL I’m just typing away here. Things are good though! 
Blessings to you all and I love all you!
29 Responses to "An Update On My Life…."
June 3, 2012 at 9:44 pm
Thanks for checking up on me Michelle and having a Laugh but yes sometimes we need to take a serious look at what is happening in our lives.
About 10 years ago I was also having continuing nightmares but after praying God showed me I had given Satan a foothold by something that I was doing which other Christians who knew and myself didn’t consider was wrong, it is very private but I will share by e-mail if wanted, once it was stopped there were no more nightmares. I’m not saying this is your problem but sometimes what we consider harmless can cause the most harm.
I will be praying for you my dear friend and what I hold onto always is ask and we will receive and that includes answers to our concerns.
Christian Love Anne.
June 4, 2012 at 10:00 pm
Thanks Anne. I appreciate you sharing that with and I understand what you are saying. The dreams have been getting better. God bless!
June 3, 2012 at 7:20 pm
Michele,
I am new to your site and found my way here via Marianne Lordi’s site. I will pray for you and if I can ever be of Christian service to you in any way, please do not hesitate to contact me. Please feel free to utilize my site at: http://www.time2stand.com. Marianne also blogs for our ladies blog page.
Peace and blessings,
Jeremy Strang
June 1, 2012 at 3:40 pm
Hi Michelle,
Just checking in on ya. Pray that you are working hard, keeping the faith and continuing to trust God for what He is about to doi n and through you.
god bless and I love ya.
Debra
June 3, 2012 at 4:30 pm
I am working hard Debra and thank you for checking on me. I’ve been working 10 hours shifts and am pretty drained. I continue to read my Bible and pray a few times a day. I’m really trying to stay close to the Lord and I do feel His presence and comfort. Blessings to you friend.
June 3, 2012 at 4:46 pm
AMEN!
That is good news Michelle. Being busy is great for you. It helps keep your mind where it needs to be.
I am happy to hear that you are still praying and reading your Word daily.
Praise be to God! Your faithfulness will be rewarded by God Michelle.
God bless and I love ya my sister.
Debra
May 31, 2012 at 9:43 am
Praying for you….1John 4:4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.
June 3, 2012 at 4:28 pm
Thank you for the prayers. I really need the confidence building right now. Many blessings to you Rob!
May 29, 2012 at 4:31 pm
Oh, Honey! Yes, you are victorious in JESUS’ NAME over Satan. He is oppressing you, but keep asking the LORD to help you. It is a spiritual Battle and in Christ we have already won the War. My experience I had similiarly I kept seeing and feeling demonic presence. Remember that Jesus promised that He would never leave us or forsake us. Finally, after confessing known sin, I commanded the demons, “IN JESUS NAME, BE GONE. GET TO THE PITT.” That had happened several days every time I closed my eyes. It had started after waking up from major surgery. Praise be to our Heavenly Father, after commanding in JESUS’ NAME, it was gone and I could close my eyes and rest in peace. Some people think it was just the drug … but it sure was amazing the exact time that it quit. Also, the pain drugs remained the same. Nothing changed on my medical thing.
June 3, 2012 at 4:27 pm
Thank you for your advice. I will take it to heart and use it. Many blessings to you!
May 26, 2012 at 8:32 pm
Its good to hear from you, everything is going to be okay. Don’t let the devil win! Congrats on your promotions. God Bless 🙂
May 25, 2012 at 2:24 am
Hi Michele. Thank you for your open honesty in your blogs. I can really relate to alot of what you’re saying. I want you to know that you are not alone (I’m sure you already know that). God will be your strength if you let Him. One of my favorite verses that helped me far more than I can say is: “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” (Philippians 4:13) The key words are “through Christ”. Without Him leading me, I mess everything up. Your comment about “live by faith and not by sight” is another of my favorites, a way I have learned to live daily. Anyway, I will keep praying for you, that God will bless you moment by moment, in His loving grace.
May 25, 2012 at 10:41 pm
What kind words! Thank you so much for your support and encouragement. It goes a long way. God bless!
May 24, 2012 at 5:41 pm
Dear Michele,
I don’t know your whole story, but I do know that you spent many of your developing years addicted and fighting addiction. During that time you were not developing. NOW you are. You are going to be trying things for the first time that some tried a decade ago at a much younger age. When we do things for the first time, we aren’t always great at them. Expect some set-backs and expect some hard times, but don’t interpret that as unworthiness or incompetence or inability. You are just learning and growing. Satan, that old liar, will make you think otherwise so remind yourself early every day and often that he’s a liar. Just keep moving forward in a positive direction, but expect growth pains. You look young. That will work in your favor!
I’ll be backing you up in prayer, my dear little sister in Christ,
Dawn
May 24, 2012 at 11:11 pm
Okay. I will listen to your advice, thank you for showing me things that I may encounter and how to handle them. I love your wisdom Dawn. I know this comes from experience and your knowledge of God Word’s and your closeness with Him reinforces the wisdom you share.
Love you in Christ sis,
Michele
May 24, 2012 at 4:18 pm
Thanks for the update! Praying with you for God’s angels to protect you. Satan can just get behind you because you are doing this with God and Jesus is driving the bus! Praying you get a chance to get out (maybe CR ;)) and meet some folks that offer love and support on a real and honest level. At least that has been my experience…In the name of Jesus Christ I am rebuking satan and praying that God’s Holy Spirit fill you with dreams and visions of His glory. You know we are all with you here and you are not alone, ever. Christ makes all things new!
May 24, 2012 at 4:30 pm
Thanks Tom! And yes CR. I’ve wanted to go and either forget or I’m working…..okay…I’m making excuses with half truths. LOL You get it. But you’re right. The Holy Spirit has laid it on my heart to go, I know He has. Right now I’m working Friday evenings and that is the only night they have it here in my town. I’ve checked neighboring towns, and it’s always only one night a week and the nearest other place is 20 miles away. But….once the new promotion goes into place, I will be working back to days. I have to make a conscious effort to do this. Keep encouraging me….I’ll get it eventually. haha
Thank you for your prayers. Just so you know..I wrote an entire email to you and somehow I deleted it and couldn’t go back and find it. That is so frustrating! 🙂 I will respond to your email shortly.
Love in Christ brother and many blessings to you!
May 24, 2012 at 4:41 pm
Hey, I think your first email did come through. Don’t worry about rewriting. I have a project to finish but will get back to you! Thanks and so thankful you are doing well!!!
May 24, 2012 at 11:12 pm
okay. but I will send you an emaim shortly so we can talk “off blog”. 🙂
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May 24, 2012 at 3:40 pm
Michele, it is so good to hear from you today. I want to congratulate you on your job promotions — someone is seeing that potential hidden within you!!!!!
You know, Satan always keeps a journal of our lives and knows just where we are weak, where we fell before, what we are prone to trip over, and constantly puts these things in front of us. The first verse that came to my mind was I Corinthians 10:13. It talks about temptations that want to overtake us. If you think of a temptation as a preditor, we can include those negative thoughts, the things that tell us we can’t do it, the anxious thoughts, etc. The whole picture of this verse takes us to a canyon floor, far below the smooth, straight, high walls of rock on both sides, blocking us in. Think of a preditor chasing you along that canyon floor, and as you run, your eyes are quickly looking to the right and left for a way of escape, but there are none. And all of a sudden, you see it — a small opening in the wall of the canyon, like stairs leading to the top, and you have one moment to choose — take the way of escape, or fall into the teeth of the preditor. You take the escape provided and are safe. This is what God does for us — trust His Word — This verse promises you a way of escape every.single.time.
Dreams are so tricky, and we are so vulnerable. I’m one who remembers every single thing in my dreams, too. Us light sleepers seem to dream in such reality and remembering them is because we wake up often. I’m always being chased, and I can’t seem to run. Always the same basis of a dream, maybe different places or different people, but always trying to run and I can’t. I can only tell you that in some ways, this resembles my life. I try so hard to run away from things, people, problems, even myself. Yet, it seems they are always with me. I don’t know the answer to the dream thing. Perhaps someone who comes by after me help us both.
But I have learned not to listen to the negative stuff in them, just as I would not listen to all the negative of a real person or from Satan himself.
Please know that I will be praying for you. I know your heart is bent towards Him, and He will answer and direct your paths!!!!
May 24, 2012 at 4:13 pm
Thank you so much! I can totally relate to what your saying about the running thing in your dream. My heart IS bent towards Him, and He knows my heart. God must get so frustrated with me though because He knows my heart but then my self-talk doesn’t line up. Does that make sense? Could that be why I’m irritable? My heart along with my thoughts and actions aren’t in balance? 😦
You’ve helped me realize something. Thank you! God Bless!
May 24, 2012 at 2:56 pm
Glad you know who to turn to for that peace. God can give it to you. This is my favorite scripture for my moments . I have them on my desk and engraved on a ring I wear.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippine 4:6-7 God bless you.
May 24, 2012 at 4:07 pm
Thank you! Thats so cool you engraved that on a ring. Wanna hear something funny? I have a ring I bought that has the word “Faith” written on it. Its just a simple silver band. I’ve had it for months now. Well, I took it off the other day and I discovered it had something else written inside of it, “I live by faith, not by sight.” I can’t believe I never noticed that before!! I felt like an idiot then I was like Awwwww, that’s so cool. LOL God bless you and thank you for commenting my friend. 🙂
A little about me........my name is Michele and I am a born-again Christian. I was saved as a teenager and graduated from a Christian high school. I am a mother of one son who is the world to me. Despite my upbringing, later in life I fell into a life of self destruction which led me down many dark paths. I am a recovering addict and alcoholic and I have a great passion for Christ and His amazing power to heal even the worst cases. I am living proof of the miracle of God's power to change your life and way of thinking. Nothing is impossible with God. 
By His Grace 
June 7, 2012 at 8:47 am
Ok girlfriend, needing another update as the Holy Spirit has impressed you upon my heart. Praying all is well! Missing your posts!
June 8, 2012 at 9:21 pm
Thanks Tom and perfect timing for you to ask. I’ve been under so much stress because of this new position and I’m questioning if I can even do the manager job or not. I hit the door running at 6am and work 9-10 hour days, with only a quick cigeratte break. I’ve lost like 6 pounds already. Stress does not do a recoverying addict good. The devil is having a field day in my thought life, but I am doing my best to rebuke and discern those thoughts. I make sure I spend at least 10 minutes or more with God and His Word before I leave for work. It gives me such peace and perspective! I’ve been working on a post but just can’t seem to get it to where I want it.
Thank you for your continued prayers. Love you my friend in Christ Tom!
June 8, 2012 at 9:52 pm
Thanks for the update! I will continue to pray for you. You are so wise to bathe yourself with God before your day begins and to be aware and prepared for the stress. No need to be fearful of it just to have the God you fear there with you. I am praying that God shows Himself to you during the day to defeat and redirect your thoughts. I pray that liitle reminders will encourage you to praise God for who He is and for being your strength and your stress relief! He is with you! Great to hear from you…don’t be a stranger!!
June 9, 2012 at 12:56 pm
Thanks Tom. I really appreciate the prayers. Many blessings to you my friend!