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demon

I’ve been wanting to write a post about this for quite some time.  First, I will tell you I watch way too much tv.  I love true crime & court shows.  For instance, I watch Court TV, In Session, Nancy Grace, Dr. Drew, Forensic Files, Wives with Knives, Snapped, Deadly Wives, Motives & Murders, Sins & Secrets, Deadly Affairs, Happily Never After, 48 Hours Mystery, Dateline I.D., and City Confidential.  I don’t just watch them, I DVR them while I’m and at work and when sleeping.  DVR is the coolest invention ever.  Seriously.

It’s safe to say I watch a lot of crap on TV.  But my favorites are the ones where the wives get fed up and “off” their spouse.  The abusive, nasty husband who cheats and beats up his wife on a regular basis……then they get whacked.  Shoulda been nicer to her,,,, jerk.

If you’re sitting there with your mouth open and a look of bewilderment on your face, don’t worry.   I’m not crazy, just well……damaged could be a good word for it I guess.  You see a lot of the people depicted in these shows have something in common with me and the course of my life.

I have walked and lived amongst people who behave like this.  I have been the victim as depicted in these shows (minus getting murdered of course).  But I have also associated with the demons who reek havoc and mayhem on all the people around them.  And I do believe these people have demons in them.

What sparked the interest in writing this post is a current trial I’ve been watching on ‘In Session”.  The man is being convicted of murdering his 14 year old stepson.  He did it and admitted it.  I won’t go into the details of the trial but what sparked me today to sit and write was when this man was on the witness stand.  I clearly believe he has a demon (or many demons) inside him.  There is no conscience.  He tortures puppies. He killed his stepson to get back at his ex-wife.  I have not seen the whole trial yet and don’t know all the facts but what I saw today was the dude sitting on the stand saying “she killed my son so I killed hers.”   Revenge. Sicko. Demon.

Are humans REALLY capable of that?  Or is it a DEMON inside doing it?  I want to ask my Christian friends out there this question.  God made us in the likeness of His image.  His purpose was not for us to kill and destroy each other.  Satan came in and tempted Eve and it wound up destroying God’s divine plan because of a choice that Eve made.  But before Satan came into the picture, was it in our nature to kill?   What is it in our nature to “to eat or be eaten?”.

Let me ask this…..Did God know that Eve would give into Satan’s lies and eat the apple?  If He did, why did He create us knowing we would fail?

I know I went a little off topic here but when I was a teenager (grew up in Baptist church) I would ask this question that no one could answer for me……if God is “All Knowing” then He knew there would be so much suffering and pain….why did He create earth and humans knowing that?

demon peopleI honestly believe that a few people I work with have demons in them.  I can even see it in the way their face distorts.  And their eyes.  Those black voidless eyes.  It’s freaky.  I steer clear of them and and usually say a quick mental prayer for strength.

This post is kinda all over the place so sorry guys.  Letting thoughts run wild a little today.

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TRUST IN THE LORD

God has pulled me through so many difficult circumstances in my life I can not count. And yet, I still struggle with worry and fear. When a situation comes into my life that is unpleasant, I instantly feel that sicky feeling in my stomach and my heart races. I really don’t like this about myself and this problem is probably what I want to change most about myself today.

My faith in God has certainty strengthened through the years. He has done tremendous works in my life. In hindsight, I see extraordinary circumstances that just seemed to work out for the better without much of my doing. It was most certainly God working good in my life.

And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them.” Romans 8:28 (NLT)

Have you ever thought just how busy God is making everything work together for our good? Look at all the mistakes we make. Look at the mess we can make in our lives from sinning. And yet God always comes through for us. Granted, God’s timing is not our timing. Sometimes God works quickly to resolve our problems, and sometimes He works slowly. Very slowly. It is during these slow processes that our faith is tested.

But my issue is with my FIRST response to unpleasant news. I do eventually calm down after a few minutes and start to pray for His help. I ask for comfort and the strength to endure. And I also pray to help me trust Him. The frustrating part is that I DO trust Him! And yet my someday-ahia-b (300x199)first response is fear and worry. I don’t get it. How do I change this about myself? Am I just built this way? God has changed so much about my life and my way of thinking, but this part of me hasn’t changed. I am aware that the difficulties that arise in my life are definitely coming from when I chose to go outside of God’s Will.

Awareness of where my problems start is one thing. I guess that can count for something. But awareness does nothing if not followed by practicing faith in God’s promises and what He says in His Word.

Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully”. 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)

You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, whose thoughts are fixed on you!” Isaiah 26:3 (NLT)

 

“I will instruct you (says the Lord) and guide you along the best pathway for your life; I will advise you and watch your progress.” Psalms 32:8 (LB)

When have you sensed God’s guidance leading you in a difficult direction? If so, what did you do?

We may be called to do something that nobody else will understand.  He may be leading us in a direction that we have never tried before.  In fact, I believe that most of the time this to be true.  Does God keep sending us back through the same situation or does He give us His loving guidance to move forward, to step out into new things?

If the only step that is clear is the next step, then just take it!  I don’t often know what the next 2, 3 or 10 steps will be.  But God will give me an inner conviction on the step that’s right in front of me.  So I take it.  That involves strong faith and trust in the God who has brought me through some very dark times.

“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9(NIV)

I think about how scary my life was at one point.  The situations I put myself in.  The near-death experiences when my body shut down.  Waking up in a locked-down mental ward in 4-point restraints and not remembering what happened the night before.  But even through all that, I don’t remember having a lot of fear.  I was full of chemical courage.  The only time I got scared was when I started getting some clarity.  And boy is clarity hitting me in the face these past two weeks!  The devil is reminding me of that chemical courage and I have had a fight on my hands.  But my Lord is pulling me through this, it’s only Him.  My history shows that I do not have the strength on my own.  The Lord is my strength!  All credit and glory goes to Him!

What are your priorities in your daily schedule?

Do you include seeking God’s guidance as one of those priorities?

I encourage you to seek God’s loving guidance on a daily basis.  Add it to your morning prayer.  Stick a note on your coffee pot or your steering wheel to remind yourself before you leave for work.  We are faithful followers of Jesus Christ, aren’t we?  With that comes a responsibility to seek Him, talk to Him, ask Him and TRUST Him.

As we seek His loving guidance, don’t forget to see His blessings in the process!

God is always doing new things.  Stepping out into something new in our life can be very scary.  We can choose to continue living in our past.  We can choose to stay where we are.  But God doesn’t want a stagnant Christian.  He also doesn’t want us reliving our past to the point where we aren’t able to move forward and make progress.  It’s okay to remember the good things of our past, but not to get stuck there.  God wants us to step out into new things.  He wants us to trust Him no matter what, with no apprehension.

I ask myself, “Why are you so resistant to new things, when you can clearly see how God has pulled you through so much in your life?”  Times when I didn’t think I had it in me to go one more day, one more week, one more year, my God got me through.  I don’t like being uncomfortable.  Maybe that’s where my resistance stems from.  Fear usually plays a part in it–fear of the unknown.  But mostly, I just don’t like being uncomfortable!

The Bible doesn’t tell me that I have be to comfortable to be obedient.

Sometimes I just have to do things afraid.  Look at all the wonderful stories in the Old Testament when God wanted someone to step out into new things.  One of these stories is in Joshua 1.  God tells Joshua that it’s time for him to take his new position.  Moses had died and Joshua was in mourning.  God tells him it’s time to move forward into his new responsibility, leading the people into the Promised Land.  God tells him to,

“Be strong (confident) and of good courage…” (Joshua 1:6)

This process also involves “letting go”.  To let go of something that I have held dear to my heart is not easy!  God is finished with a certain part of my life and if I am to grow further in my walk with Christ I must make a choice to start living, leave a relationship behind and step out in faith.  I shouldn’t be afraid to walk away from something that God is finished with because His Word tells me He as something new and wonderful for me.  My God is a good God and He is a faithful God!   Being a Christian, I must avoid anything that may compromise my relationship with Jesus. This includes friendships and relationships.

The enemy loves to steal our joy because after all–a weak Christian is not an effective Christian.  Quite frankly, I’m tired of allowing that to happen.  So I am making a conscious choice to step out into new things today and trust in the Lord to direct my paths and lead me into a new part of my life.


A little about me........my name is Michele and I am a born-again Christian. I was saved as a teenager and graduated from a Christian high school. I am a mother of one son who is the world to me. Despite my upbringing, later in life I fell into a life of self destruction which led me down many dark paths. I am a recovering addict and alcoholic and I have a great passion for Christ and His amazing power to heal even the worst cases. I am living proof of the miracle of God's power to change your life and way of thinking. Nothing is impossible with God.

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