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This post is a personal situation I’m going through and would appreciate any input from my brothers, sisters in Christ and fellow friends in recovery. 

There is a man at work who wants to pursue a friendship.  He is a manager and has been awesome with helping me have a “voice” at work during times when I was having some issues with getting more shifts, more tables, etc.  Essentially, making more money.  Because of his input to the higher ups, on my account, I have made awesome money this week.  I am grateful.  Very grateful.

Now mind you, I am not naïve.  I know that this “friendship” he wants to pursue will develop into stronger feelings.  Feelings that I am not ready for.  He knows I am a Christian.  He is not a believer.   He does not make fun of my beliefs (to my face anyway), but I have heard him scoff at the very mention of Jesus Christ and God.  He made a comment yesterday about the church crowd coming in for lunch.  He mentioned that “these people go to church and act all ‘good’ yet it’s obvious one of them is a homosexual”.  I looked at him and said, “God loves everybody.”  Someone gave him a little card about salvation, and he laughed and said “can you believe they gave this to me?”  And threw it away.  He knows how I feel about God and Jesus, and I was offended.  It hurt my feelings.  But I didn’t let him see that. 

I was contemplating getting a second job, and was very torn about this decision.  Reason being, I don’t want to shoot myself in the foot and have my current job be upset and take me off the schedule all together.  I do appreciate this man’s input and advice.  So I went to him for advice.  He knows the restaurant owners better than I do and he told me they wouldn’t like it, especially with the busy season coming.  There is always another person wanting my job.  So I decided to not go for the interview at this other restaurant.  I was up in the air about what to do.  I prayed boldly about it. 

My first thoughts are to seek God with my decision making and what choices to make.  But I wasn’t positive of what to do and thought maybe God was opening a door for me to make more money.  But I had never got a clear cut answer from God if this was His will or not.  I had to make a decision within 3 days.  So I sought other advice.  And I believe I made the right decision now by cancelling the interview.

Now back to the whole “friendship” thing.  He kept pressing me into talking about how we feel about each other.  He says I’m running away from myself.  This was my response to that comment, “I am not running away from myself.  I am very confident in who I am, but at this point of my life, I am focusing on myself.  I don’t have the emotional or mental room for others right now.”  This is the truth.  I found myself thinking too much about this man, when I should be filling my thoughts with Jesus.  I was very uncomfortable allowing an unbeliever from the opposite sex filling my thoughts.  I could tell it was wrong.  The Holy Spirit was grieving about this and I felt it. 

So today I put an end to it.  I told him we can stay work friends and that’s it.  He was very polite about it and backed off (at least for now). 

Here are my questions:usthem

  • When do we seek human advice from man when we aren’t hearing from God, especially if we need an answer within a deadline?
  • We have to work in a world of unbelievers, how dangerous is it for us to follow their advice about our careers?
  • God works through people, do you believe God also works through unbelievers to bless us?  Why do you believe this?
  • How close are we to get to an unbeliever?  Should we develop close friendships with them?
  • Should we have an attitude of “us” and “them” ?

I just started taking a course on Systematic Theology.  This is something that I have been wanting to do for a long time and I am excited to say I have started it.  I just finished reading from a book titled, “Bible Doctrine”, by Wayne Grudem.  In the fourth chapter, he speaks about The Knowability of God.

It is so interesting that I wanted to share with you a few things I read about this topic.

  • We can never fully understand God.  God in infinite, we are limited.
  • We can never fully understand any single thing about God; His greatness, His wisdom, His understanding, His knowledge, etc.
  • We will never be able to know “too much” about God.
  • We will never run out of things to learn about God.

The source of our joy and sense of importance ought to come not from our abilities or possessions, but from the fact that we know God.  Jeremiah 9:23-24

God bless you all!

I’ve had two blogging friends contact me today to check in with me.  I know I have neglected my site and I think of all of you often!!  Thank you my friends.  Do you guys realize how much you impact me when you “check in” with me?  I need that soooo much.

I am so honored the Lord has brought all of you into my life.  It doesn’t matter that I haven’t physically met any of you.

The blessings and personal fulfillment I receive from all of you is a MAJOR part of my life.   God knows me better than I know myself.  I’ve screwed up so many friendships in my life.  I’ve also been rejected and hurt so many times even when I thought I was being a good friend.  God knows I get lonely and I won’t venture out to “make friends”.  I am so grateful the Lord has led me to start blogging.

I’ve been working A LOT.  I recently got a promotion, but I actually just got another promotion (two days ago) to asst manager!  LOL   God is amazingly blessing me.  My head is in a bit of a whirlwind and I am trying so hard not to feel overwhelmed.  Satan has been working overtime trying to kill my confidence and keep my mind off of Christ.  But I keep fighting and staying grounded.  At least I hope so.  I hear Satan telling me, “Everything is going to blow up in your face just like it always does.”

I feel like I’ve lost my peace lately though.  Even though all these good things are happening, I wake up irritable and emotional.  It’s not enough that Satan attacks my thoughts during the day…

I think he’s at his strongest in my dreams.  I have no defense in that situation.

I can read the Bible before bed and keep Christian music playing while I sleep and yet I will literally fight a demon in my dream that night.  It’s so scary.  I can tell you specifics because I remember my dreams, but I honestly don’t want to keep thinking about it.  I will purposely stay awake because I’m scared to go back to sleep.  I’d rather deal with the fatigue of no-sleep the next day then have to deal with the stress of bad dreams.  I pray all the time for God to put a legion of angels in my dreams to protect me.  But it doesn’t always work.

Anyway, not sure why I went there.  LOL  I’m just typing away here.  Things are good though! Smile  Blessings to you all and I love all you!


A little about me........my name is Michele and I am a born-again Christian. I was saved as a teenager and graduated from a Christian high school. I am a mother of one son who is the world to me. Despite my upbringing, later in life I fell into a life of self destruction which led me down many dark paths. I am a recovering addict and alcoholic and I have a great passion for Christ and His amazing power to heal even the worst cases. I am living proof of the miracle of God's power to change your life and way of thinking. Nothing is impossible with God.

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