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Create in me a clean heart, O God.  Renew a right spirit within me.” Psalm 51:10 (NLT)

Wouldn’t that be a great name for a game show, “What’s Your Motive”?  Motives are a sort-of mind game, aren’t they?.   It’s ultimately about our intention to have you believe something or to acquire something we want.  Motives can be good or bad, wrong or right, pure or impure.

Have you even known someone who always seems to operate with a hidden agenda?  You know the one.  The one who is “fake”.  The one you can’t trust.  The one who whenever he/she is talking is more than likely lying to you?  Do you remember when you first found out this person had a hidden agenda?  When you figured out this person’s method of operation was tricking you, and deceiving you for their personal gain?  Maybe it was subtle.  Maybe they just want you to believe something that they are not.  You feel deceived…..betrayed…..like you got kicked in the stomach.   

You see, I was one of those people.  In active addiction, that was my m.o.    I wasn’t like that when sober though.   No where near it.  As days of sobriety started to add up, God revealed to me the subconscious manipulation methods I used in order to get people to do what I wanted.  He showed me how I could be subtle in my intent and that my motive was not pure.  I wasn’t trying to hurt anybody.  It had become a learned behavior and half the time I wasn’t even aware of it.

So I ask God to help me stay sensitive to the motives of my heart.  I ask God to bring to the surface the little bits &pieces of impurity that may have lingered or have worked their way back in again.

“Grant me purity of heart, that I may honor you.” – Psalms 86:11

God doesn’t reveal these things to me so I will feel bad about myself.  That is what the devil wants me to believe.  I use to live in a constant state of guilt & shame (see my post about forgiving myself).  God knew my self esteem was unstable back then, and in time I would heal.  But now He reveals the condition of my heart so that I can repent any unconfessed sin.  I want Him to.  I ask Him for this.  He reveals my subtle motives so that I can become pleasing in His sight.  So I can change.   So I can honor Him.

God knows my heart.  He knows me better than I do.  God knows that I really don’t want to hurt people or even hurt myself.  He knows I wanted to change and I wanted to please Him but I couldn’t do that until He showed me the motives of my heart.  It’s important that I keep my motives in check on a daily basis.  Without purity of heart, I won’t be able to move forward to what the Lord wants for my life. 

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A little about me........my name is Michele and I am a born-again Christian. I was saved as a teenager and graduated from a Christian high school. I am a mother of one son who is the world to me. Despite my upbringing, later in life I fell into a life of self destruction which led me down many dark paths. I am a recovering addict and alcoholic and I have a great passion for Christ and His amazing power to heal even the worst cases. I am living proof of the miracle of God's power to change your life and way of thinking. Nothing is impossible with God.

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